Teen Talk – The Past is Always Following You

I once read a quote that said, “How many moments in life can you point to and say: That’s when it all changed.” This quote in particular has made me think about moments in my life that have changed me forever beyond what words can express. Ever since I was a little girl, I can remember asking my parents about my grandparents. “Where are they?” “Why aren’t they here?” “Can I meet them?” I never got the answer I was hoping for. They consistently gave me short answers, like, “no,” or “they’re bad people,” and they always told me I couldn’t meet them. I’ve always thought that if I knew them, I would be able to find this part of myself that I’ve been longing to find. They were family I wondered about everyday and although I didn’t know who they were, I still loved them. Now that I’m older, I am more curious then I have ever been. The list of questions I have about my family could go on hundreds of pages because it’s what I think makes me who I am, and that nostalgic feeling for the sense of knowing them has haunted me as long as I can remember. My dad doesn’t like to talk about his parents. It’s something he has kept to himself for many years. I ask him about them and I can feel that sadness. You can see it in his eyes; that pain and that hidden feeling from the past. My mom, too, doesn’t like to talk about them either. She ignores them like they don’t even exist. My parents don’t know how not knowing them has affected me a lot in my life. There are many times when I needed them. A lot of that has changed now. All of the times my parents telling me no has pushed me more to prove them wrong.

March 3rd, 2013 is a time in my life when it all changed. I met my grandparents on this day. I can remember walking up the steps to their door thinking how surreal it was. Tears were rolling down my face and I couldn’t think straight and I knew that when I left, I was going to feel different. What a moment this was; my grandfather opening the door seeing my face for the first time in 16 years, it’s unexplainable. Coming in to meet my grandmother for the first time, too, was an amazing moment for me as well. Although I didn’t stay long, the amount of time I could have, would have never been enough to make up the time that had already passed. Meeting my grandparents was the best day of my entire existence and words and feelings can’t ever explain how much that day meant to me and I know to them, as well. I still keep in contact with them and see them regularly although my dad still doesn’t know.  I know that if I hadn’t done this when I did, it would have been too late. What I’ve learned over the past few months through all of this is that the past is always following you and I hope that my dad stops running because I know I have.

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Author:Sky

"I want to leave my mark on this world.” Sky Curtis is a junior at Newport High School. She is a young determined teen who one day hopes to change the world by her words. Witty yet introverted, writing is what she loves most because it is how she is able to release all of the thoughts that roam her mind. She dreams of traveling the world and writing a book for everyone to read one day. Although she is not sure what to write about, she is still looking to find that answer by traveling the world. Inspired by present day athletes and her parents, she has always been one to do things on her own. Her parents have never told her that she is entitled to success; you have to work hard for it and even then you don’t even get it. But she is someone who is very ambitious and plans to work hard for what she wants until she gets it. After high school, she plans to go to college in New York for English and World Literature's major with a minor in Creative Writing. She wants to get out of the tiny town she lives in, go where things happen on a big scale and make something of herself.

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